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Self Worth

Hello lovelies! I hope you all are doing well. It is early morning here and of course I am feeling inspired. Recently, I have been in a really great state of mind. I got rid of negativity and put positivity out into the world and back into my life. Of course this positivity led to a new spark in my life. It is pretty crazy how the world puts things together.

I titled this post about self worth because some people are put into your life to make you think in ways you never thought you would. They make you see yourself differently or possibly make you see the beauty of YOU! They also make you see that how you have been treated makes you who you are today and you should not be ashamed of that.

Of course no one needs to show you how worthy you are of the world and how worthy you are of you, but sometimes it is nice to have someone open the door. No, I do not mean someone to literally open the door, I am speaking metaphorically. (Just in case you did not know). I mean if you like having someone open the door for you, do you boo haha

Everyone who knows me knows I love makeup. I have an addiction. I work at a makeup store, which equals my paycheck going to makeup. I mean I am doing research for my customers right? Maybe it just sounds better when I put it like that. I am bringing up makeup because a beauty vlogger who I love on YouTube (KathleenLights) brought up self worth on her snapchat story yesterday, and let me tell you I had a revelation. Boys should never define your worth, it is that simple. Kathleen talked about how (in high school) she used to think boys were so complicated and of course guys think girls are complicated. This is a common belief, not just in high school. But she came to the realization that it is not true, at first I questioned her. I continued to listen and it made complete sense. If someone truly likes you, or if you like someone, things are never complicated or confusing. Someone will go the extra mile for you! I promise you. Just give it all time, waiting is key.

It is funny how some of define our worth based on men. I am currently in a class that is about feminist theories and it is so interesting. There’s a few guys in that class which really make it quite intriguing.

Self worth is something I believe is not something just women struggle with. As a society we all base our worth for someone based on weight, looks, how much money we make, etc. It is ridiculous. None of those things define who you are and they should not. If someone judges you based on those characteristics they have something they are battling with within themselves. If that makes sense. Obviously, you just need to look out for those people and stay away.

Something I struggle with everyday is body confidence, it is just something anyone can struggle with. When you have been bullied by boys in your youth for how you look, it really screws with your mind. Up until I started dating, I never understood how someone could love me, or accept me for who I am. But what I did not realize was the fact that I had never been myself around people. I was hiding so I could not get hurt over and over. I still struggle with being myself but it is okay. I have been more myself recently than I have in years. I don’t know if it’s from doing some early “spring cleaning” in my life or if it’s due to that spark I was talking about. Just stop over analyzing certain situations in your life, it eliminates confusion and negativity. Of course, I struggle to take my own advice at times, but that’s life right? Someone who sees you will not judge your appearance, only the appearance of what is on the inside. Let me tell you this is true. I know it is.

All of the guys that have come and gone in your life served a purpose. It leads you to finally see how worthy you are of so much happiness, joy, and love. I don’t necessarily mean to have those things come from someone else, they can come from yourself. You have to love yourself.

I think that I could go on and on about this topic, but I don’t want to keep you all reading forever. I guess I sort of talked about self worth and accepting positivity and love into your life. I thought it was something great to touch upon because Valentine’s Day is approaching. I hope you all have a fabulous Valentine’s Day loving yourself, family, or your significant other. We all deserve to have a lovely day.

I will catch up with you all again soon!

XOXO

~NewBeautyGuru~

 

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Late Night Nonsense~The Start of Something New!

So I’m laying in bed with nothing to do on a wednesday night, which is now an early thursday and I have this sudden urge to write. But I want to start this new addition to my blog called, “Late Night Nonsense.” Every thursday or friday night, I want to designate a time where I can talk to you guys, who are still out there, about anything and everything. The nights might vary due to my work schedule, but it’s summer and I am going to make some time.

My school year has been quite crazy and it was hard keeping a balance between work, schoolwork, and my social life. I’m not gonna lie, my social life came first most of the time, but I really need to change that for next semester. I haven’t been living up to my full potential lately, is anyone with me? My mind has been all over the place lately and I just can’t seem to figure out what my calling in life is. I really am questioning everything I’m doing. I am hating all of my English classes I’ve been taking and I sadly came to terms with the fact that I am not meant to be an English major anymore. Now I have this urge to want to work for the CIA. I know right! NewBeautyGuru meets agent! Haha no, but I want to try and pursue international relations/political science. I took a political science class my first semester and strangely liked it. I’m not so into politics and maybe it was the teacher who made the class enjoyable, but why not give it a shot? I am in college, a time when I am supposed to be free to experiment. I just hate going to my advisor and telling him all of these changes I want to make because I change my mind so often.

Last night I was talking with my mother and I had gotten a text from one of my friends who needed advice. My mom quickly told me that my true calling is counseling. At first I laughed, but then I realized I am pretty great at giving advice even if the other person does not want to hear it at the time. And then I realized again that I hate psychology with a passion, and I need to stop dating psych majors. Seriously! Every guy I have been on a date with has been a psych major, do I have a sign on my back saying “All psychology majors come date me!?” I don’t think so, and it has not been working for me either. At this point, I am done with guys and need to focus on bettering myself. Guys will always be around weither we want them around or not.

Why is figuring out one’s path so difficult? I wish there was a book that outlined everyone’s futures to give us all some relief from stressing out over everything. At this point in my life I am unsure of every little thing, which bothers me so much. I have always been so sure of myself and it’s all been blown to pieces. At least I know I am not the only one who feels this way and I just have to have faith that it will all work out. God has a plan, I have to sit back and try to enjoy the ride.

What else do I do when I am just laying in bed? It’s only fitting that I am listening to some get up and dance in your underwear kind of music! I’ll link my favorite songs, that may or may not get me out of my bed and make me dance shamefully to it in my pj’s below. But you guys didn’t need to know all of that, I’ll just give you the music.

You are going to want to listen to all of those songs, my favorites are 1,3, and 4.

Goodnight Loves!

~NewBeautyGuru  xoxo

Decided to do something a little different.

I know that my blog is supposed to be about fashion and what music I’m listening to, but today I am going to change things up. Someone recently asked me to write something for them and I think it came out pretty good. It’s a little deep at first, but I think it has a good meaning behind it. It shows a little more of my creative side, so I thought I would share it with you all. Warning: It’s kind of girly, but then again a women wrote it lol. I know there are probably some grammatical mistakes, so please be gentle and kind. I am opening up to you all so please take that into consideration. In the end I will also share some music on my playlist!

“She is nothing more than crimson red hands that leave marks on her wrists

Or the same hands that leave imprints like battle wounds

Those battle wounds in which gush out what is left of her soul

Slaughtered like some sort of animal.

 

She is nothing more than red hands that slap across her pale, white face

With nothing to be seen then the red fingerprints that linger on her face

Like a branding of some unusual creature.

 

She is the woman you see in the store who always wears a smile on her face

She is the girl who never gives up because she believes in the virtue of every human

She is the woman who gives more than she should

She is a girl who is lost and stuck.

 

He was once the star quarterback who had a promising future

He is the guy who looses his temper

He was the boy who lost it all

He is the guy who sits on the couch doing nothing but living on the elixir of whiskey

He was the guy who said he knew how to treat a woman

He is the guy who looses control for the fear of no control

He is the guy who blames her for everything he has ever lost and what he will loose

His red hands of hate now only define who he will ever be.

 

She looks out the mirror of a house that feels more like a prison

Through the darkness she is still able to see the beauty of life

The moonlight illuminates the night, the stars twinkle, and the crickets sing a

Melodic tune that make it a midsummer dream, whisking her off to another whimsical land.

Through the midst of the woods and the glimmer of the moon, she sees the most striking creature.

“Is that a nightingale?” she asks herself.

She has never seen one in real life; she has only heard that their singing is one of the most glorious sounds one can hear.

She is amazed that this little creature has come upon her windowsill, and started

Singing a melodic tune, that transports her anywhere from where she is.

She needed this nightingale; she needed to remind herself that she could no longer be a victim.

With a twinkle of a star, she packed her bags and sneaked out the door by the very tips of her toes.

Her nightingale was her sanity, her new home, and with the help of her new friend she flew away from the lions nest.

With the moon as her protector and the stars as her guide, she never looked back.”

-NewBeautyGuru

My favorite Band ever: The 1975 (I would literally post every song up if I could haha)

Image Credit: impfashion.com

What Goes On In My Head…

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Today, as I was watching some of my favorite TV shows with my mom, I started wondering off in my own mind. Thinking about my past and how it has brought me to the beginning of my future. I decided that I am going to stay close to home, where I currently live, and attend the University of Connecticut, Go Huskies!! Actually I will be getting my own apartment, I can’t wait to blog about that! I am so thrilled about this new journey I am about to face. I cannot believe in a few months I will be a college student 🙂

I have gone through a lot in my past. Bullying has been a big part of that. People made me feel like I was not worth it, they made me feel horrible about myself, and I got to a point where I almost started believing them. For some time I kept running away from my problems, but I knew I could never really run away from something that still was haunting me. I don’t want this post to be some sob story but more of a motivation and inspiration to some. Up until high school, bullying, was always there. I was never pretty enough or skinny enough, but did that even really matter anymore? High school has been a blessing in  my eyes, it has opened my heart to new experiences and cultures, and most of all I started to find myself. I have friends who accept me for who I am, who believe in bigger and better things for me. How have I been so lucky?

Since my past has left a scar on my heart, today I asked myself if the great things that are all coming together now, is something that I deserve. I almost had to slap myself to get that thought out of my head. I deserve to feel HAPPY, WORTHY, and DESERVING of everything that is coming my way. I have worked my butt off, not literally, yet 🙂 But in all sincerity, I can be my own worst enemy, but look where I am. Most people don’t make it as far as I have gotten and I am truly grateful. I have opened my heart to a new spiritual journey with none other that God himself, which I think has made me realize that I am worthy of what I receive. If you do not believe in God, it is okay, I don’t want to persuade you to believe in anything you do not want to, but I am just revealing more of who I am. Over the past couple of weeks he has shown me to forgive the people who have hurt me, and they might even be reading this post. I am willing to move on because I am at a point in my life where I do not want to look back at my past and be filled with hatred towards others, it just is not healthy. I am a lover not a fighter 🙂

The picture I have attached to this post is truly what I want each and every one of you’s to do. Yes I did purposely use the word you’s, wait, is that even a word? Well…whatever, it fit what I was trying to do. Which was trying to lighten the mood a little bit. You must be glad you came inside my head for just a while, huh? lol. (That was meant to be a tad sarcastic, and a bit of a metaphor, haha). Be HAPPY!! What makes me happy is writing and making others happy, I hope you all truly grasp that. This blog is supposed to be a mixture of who I am with a twist of fashion and music mixed in. I have not been good at keeping y’all updated, but you know I always come back. It breaks my heart if I am not able to write something for all of you. I pledge to try and keep you all happy, if you all pledge to be happy and stay strong in whatever is bringing you down because you will get through it, heck! I did 🙂 I hope you enjoyed reading this rant and I might be doing this type of writing more often, so keep posted, comment and like it up:)!!

With much love always,

NewBeautyGuru

Simply Comfy Chic!!

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Channel your inner fashion side by rocking this just put together look. There’s no doubt that pastel colors are in right now, they have been seen on the runway from Sonia Rykiel to Christian Dior. Who knew that these simple colors could add some chic-ness to our everyday looks? Yes I did make up my own new word, chic-ness, I hope nobody has said that before 🙂  This outfit is the evolution of, “OMG I WANT WHAT YOU’RE WEARING!!” Can anyone say Holy Bubblegum? Bubblegum WoW! This jacket adds the right amount of pop to this outfit, it reminds me of the yellow/mustard colored,Olivia Pope designed, Kim K jacket that I absolutely loved on her, except this is simply pink!

Anyone remember the Pink Ladies from Grease. I love that movie, but when you think about it, it reminds you of the Pink Ladies right?

The grey sweater just adds the perfect amount of color to contrast with the bubblegum coat. Who says you cannot wear white jeans in January? White jeans make this outfit look simply put together, and for a “monochrome match” add a pair of white converse to “elongate the legs.” Converse can almost pair with anything. My next purchase is a pair, it’s crazy to think I don’t have them in my closet. I would also keep the bag a neutral color like the one in the picture so it does not overdo the whole look.

Hope you enjoyed!

Oh! Before I forget I have some exciting news to share, I got accepted to the college I wanted in England! How cool is that! I am ready for a great year, love you all 🙂

In the picture: Oasap Coat, Mango Jeans, Zara Sweater, Converse sneakers

Love,

NewBeautyGuru

 

If you are into great deals on fashion check out stylemined.com they are often on extra promoting different deals. I snagged myself a bag and some sunnies, what will you get?

Check out Some of My Older Posts!

So it seems like a lot of people do not look at my blog anymore, which is fine, I write this blog because I love to do it. But my older posts seemed to be the highlight of my blog. I also think my earlier posts were better. Preferably the ones about Ariana Grande and Fifth Harmony, or just read everything 🙂 lol. Go check them out if you hadn’t already :)! 

Reign The CW

Reign The CW

Has anyone else watched this show? I am in love with Toby Regbo as Francis and all of the fashions. I can say nothing bad about this new series, I watched the first episode at least 2 times, and I don’t like reading or watching things I have seen before. Reign is just perfection.

The picture I have attached is my most loved outfit of Mary’s (Adelaide Kane) thus far, it is simple yet classic and timeless. I actually don’t know what else to write right now, I just love everything on the show, can you tell? Well, actually I might be able to share some of the songs that really intrigued me.

 

Enjoy! And if you have not watched the show before, watch it, you will not regret it!!

It’s My Favorite Time of Year!

It's My Favorite Time of Year!

It is around that time when we are going to unveil the fabulous fashions of fall! I love how the weather is not too cold, but not too warm, it’s just perfect! I cannot wait to sit by the fire, read a good book, and drink some hot cocoa! Before we know it, it will be 2014!! I can already tell this year is going to be awesome, because know is the time when I am applying to colleges, and I cannot contain my excitement! It has been a busy start to the school year so forgive me for not posting much, but I had some free time today, since I’m sick with the flu, to blog a little. My favorite time of year is October, is it crazy I like it more than Christmas? Well, I just love the halloween movies that come on, and I love watching those cheesy Disney Channel ones because it brings back memories of my childhood. Yes, I am implying that I am old, deal with it! lol (I know I am not old, I am only 17, but sometimes it feels like it).
This outfit is one of my go to looks for fall. It’s classy, casual, and cozy! One thing I don’t quite like about this outfit is the earrings, but that can be easily fixed! I would go for some pearl studs, because I don’t try to go all out for fall, I keep it modest. Actually I try to keep it a little modest all the time because women should have a little mystery to them. I picked this outfit because it reminded me of the fashion of where I want to go to college. Can you guess where? Drum roll please… London! Yes, I want to make the move to London, I am young I should get out and live my life. My dream is to attend Richmond the American International University. I hope I get in!!! Any British readers out there? I would love to hear your opinion of making the move.
Well this is all I have time for I hope you enjoyed my long awaited return, lol 🙂

And I leave you with a song of course!

My Favorite Band!!

It’s always a tough decision deciding which band is your ultimate favorite, because lets face it we all like new music, but I think I found my current all time favorite band (drum roll please)… The 1975! Their new album which landed out on September 3rd is mindblowing! I can’t say that about every album I listen to. It mixes today’s alternative with a 70`s/80`s twist. You have to check out my favorite song from the album (link) including settle down. Wait! and chocolate which I posted a while ago about, it also wouldn’t hurt to listen to the whole album, because currently all the songs are my fav!! Oh, and did I mention their british :p lol
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2mOsfo3I_0E