I know it has taken me a long time to write another post. The truth is I felt like giving up on this. I could not find any words to share because I had lost hope and inspiration. I found myself disinterested in many other daily activities. I would just stay home and feel sorry for myself. I knew something was wrong, but I did not know what. I was too scared to face it and I did not want to face it. Relationships I had were just things in the past. It was hard to keep friendships because I did not want to talk to anyone and I knew they would not understand. I felt alone even though I was not.
I needed to wake up and take my life back, but I just did not know how. I would not say I have my life back but I am trying to wake up as best as I can. I knew if I did not do anything the most important relationships I still had would truly suffer.
I would no longer sleep well during the night, I was waking up several times. I would wake up early no longer able to sleep in. Anxiety about going to class, running into people, etc. Lack of interest in everything. Did not want to watch anything, read anything, write anything, did not want to work, go to school, and did not want to be outside. There were moments where I was really happy then I would get extremely mad or irritated. Constantly going through thoughts in my head which drove me crazy. This is just a slight picture of what I was going through.
It was really hard when I went to study abroad in London. It was my dream to go there for as long as I could remember. As soon as I got there it was extremely hard and I knew it was for everyone, but I knew myself and how it was probably going to go. I tried my best to talk to the other people there even though they thought I was just quiet. The thing is I wanted to talk, I wanted to be best friends with everyone there, and I just stopped myself because of myself. I wish that those friendships lasted because we all had a great time together when we were out. There were many times I was so happy to be there and to be there with great people. But after classes stopped I isolated myself and I don’t know what the others thought when I was just in my room. I was not trying to be rude, I just made myself more depressed than I already was. I wish I would’ve gone out and asked everyone what they were doing so I would be included, but I just sat there. I wish they would’ve said something to me too, but it was me dealing with me. I miss London now, I wish I could do it all over again, but I did learn a lot. I needed to wake up. To all my flat mates I love you girlies, you hold a special place in my heart and memories. We experienced a lot together. Thank you for making my birthday as special as it could be when I was sick and so far from home. I will never forget you guys.
The first step was going to see someone and admitting I had a serious problem. I was extremely nervous going into that first therapy session. I had become very closed off and it was difficult to talk about myself. But it was freeing to talk to someone who did not know me and did not judge me. In the end I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. It did not come as a shock to me. I had dealt with anxiety before. I thought I had a handle on it but I guess I was wrong.
So I am in therapy, I try to go to the gym as much as I can, I try to eat better and be better. Living with these diseases is a struggle, but God gave me this challenge for a reason. I am going to live as best as I can and get the life I always wanted back. I hope you will continue on this journey with me. I am sorry to the people who think I forgot them. I love you all!
I have not been posting lately, but I felt like I needed to today. One of my dream jobs is to work in the City and become a famous journalist. This may or may not happen, but that is why I will always keep dreaming, and working towards my dreams. I would love to work at The New York Times as a fashion or music journalist, it would just be so cool. I decided to read a bit of The New York Times today and wanted to share an article I really enjoyed. I do not take any credit, I just want to share the news:) I assume you already know the title of the piece, since it is the title of this post. I hope you enjoy!! 🙂
Fashion in the Age of Instagram By:Matthew Schneier
In the Dries Van Noten exhibition at the Musée des Arts Décoratifs in Paris is a video that stitches together sequences from 20 years of his runway shows — a “supercut,” in online argot. On a tour of the show not long ago, Mr. Van Noten nodded along as memorable moments flashed: male models pedaling bicycles, women stalking the length of an enormous dinner table. But what stood out most were the ghostly points of light illuminating the audience’s faces in the recent shows.
It was, Mr. Van Noten said, their smartphones.
The professional photographers on the risers facing the runways now represent only a fraction of those furiously jockeying to document each outfit, accessory and bit of set dressing. Nearly every show attendee, from the front row to the standing section, now arrives with phone in hand and Instagram account primed.
So unremarkable is a smartphone camera in every hand, said Danielle Sherman, the creative director of Edun, that when she commissioned a director and a fleet of 20 borrowed iPhone 5s to create a video of her fall 2014 show, hardly an eyebrow was raised. “No one said anything or questioned it, or even noticed it,” she said.
This is fashion in the age of Instagram, a heady era in which digital media is changing the way clothes are presented and even the way they are designed. As shows are calibrated to be socially shared experiences, and fashion itself is rejiggered to catch eyes on a two-dimensional screen, some skeptics wonder what is being lost or sacrificed as fashion becomes grist for the digital mill.
Beyond question, the advent of digital media has fundamentally altered fashion, the designer Alexander Wang said: “The way that we shoot it, the way that we showcase it and the way that we make the clothes and design them changed.”
Digital media has also changed the way fashion is reported, consumed and shared. Trade papers and websites that once held court as the home of collection coverage have had their turf invaded by individuals. “I see the shows on Instagram now,” said Eva Chen, the editor in chief of Lucky.
“In some sense, every single person in the audience is their own media outlet,” said Keith Baptista, the managing partner of Prodject, the creative agency that produces runway shows for clients like Mr. Wang, Giorgio Armani and Ralph Lauren. “They’re all capturing these moments in this live experience to tell their own stories.” (Consider that Ms. Chen, for instance, currently has more followers on Instagram than her magazine does.)
Creating a unique — and, by extension, shareable — experience for jaded showgoers has become part of a designer’s mandate. Shows are designed to wow not only those in attendance, but also all of their followers. (That could be considered a necessary return on investment because, according to Julie Mannion, the president for creative services at the public relations and production firm KCD, a major show can cost $2 million to $8 million, in some cases reaching as much as $10 million, and last fewer than 10 minutes.)
Few shows can compete with Chanel’s for over-the-top theatrics. But the company set a higher bar for itself in February, when it erected a Costco-size supermarket stocked with some 100,000 Chanel-customized faux products. (The hams in the meat case, for example, had labels printed Jambon Cambon, a nod to the street on which Chanel maintains offices and a store.)
Before the show, spectators goggled through the aisles, taking supermarket selfies before the models, pushing shopping carts down the runway, filled their baskets. It was the show that launched 1,000 Instagrams, with “likes” in similar proportion: a photo from Susanna Lau, a.k.a. the blogger Susie Bubble, received more than 2,670, more than double that of many of the other shows she snapped; one by Ms. Chen had 2,330, several hundred more than the several others in close Insta-proximity.
The fervor was such that the collection itself was somewhat eclipsed. (Perhaps aware of the attention the mise-en-scène garnered at the expense of its fashion, Chanel declined to speak about its sets.)
It is not only the richest labels that think big. Mr. Wang has earned a reputation for social-media-friendly spectacles. In February, his show closed with robotic-looking models rotating on a platform as blasts of heat changed the color of their thermo-sensitive garments, a moment tailor-made for Instagram. “We try to think of the pictures that are going to come out online,” he said, “what the photographer pit takes versus what the audience sees.”
The picture, Mr. Wang added, is “something we always take into deep consideration, even developing a collection. Sometimes, I have to admit, as a designer, you get into this trap of thinking about clothes for a picture rather than what’s going to go into the market or showroom.”
The attention now paid to digital extends beyond scenography and staging. It has crept in, say designers and critics, to the design of many collections. Tiziana Cardini, the fashion director of the Milanese department store chain La Rinascente and a contributing editor at Italian Vogue, has noticed the change.
“Fashion has become bi-dimensional,” she said. “It’s just flat. I see that designers, especially young designers, are considering the shapes and volumes in a totally different way; the colors, also. I think they pay much more attention to the photogenic value of an outfit.” Asked why, she replied, “It’s the web, definitely, that has changed the language.”
Young editors, too, have been conditioned to think of fashion in the flat plane of the digital screen.
“What concerns me is the generational shift,” said Ed Filipowski, the president for media relations at KCD. “So much of the younger generation does not look at the clothes for the first time with their eyes. They’re trained to see clothes for the first time through photographs, two-dimensional as opposed to three-dimensional.”
(Was it this tendency that Rei Kawakubo, the Delphic savant of Comme des Garçons, was satirizing — or celebrating — in her fall 2012 collection, which consisted of felt garments flattened like paper dolls’ clothes? “The future is two dimensions,” was her explanation of the show.)
Both Mr. Filipowski and Ms. Cardini noted that the shift they have described is not necessarily a negative one. KCD, in fact, has implemented video “digital fashion shows” that exist only online, though Mr. Filipowski said that these are not meant to replace the traditional show.
The changes wrought by the flat screen do come with potential downsides. Though several designers mentioned the ability of Instagrammers to capture a garment at more angles than before, intricacies of cut and construction can vanish when reduced to two dimensions. Shows that may be gripping live may be done little justice on-screen. Junya Watanabe’s fall collection, all in black (notoriously hard to photograph), was composed of pieces of many fabrics sewn together to create a patchwork. On-screen, the nuances often failed to come through. Couture, relying as it does on minute handwork, may suffer even more. “People can’t see what couture is very well on a computer screen,” Raf Simons of Dior complained to Interview.
Online ubiquity can also result in overexposure and copycatting. Phoebe Philo of Céline restricts photography, refusing to allow attendees to shoot smartphone pictures at some of her presentations and supplying news media outlets with her own photos only when the collections arrive in stores. In 2010, Tom Ford took a similar tack by barring photographers and cellphones — the news media protested — when he showed his first runway collection in years.
Tellingly, Mr. Ford eventually gave in. His recent shows during London Fashion Week were seen online as most shows are — which is to say, in their entirety, nearly instantaneously.
While some labels still attempt to curb access — “There are brands that actually will block cellphone and data signals during shows,” said Mr. Baptista, the producer, declining to name names — most willingly accept that the genie is out of the bottle, digitally speaking.
There are, after all, positive gains as well as potential drawbacks.
The London designer Mary Katrantzou has been aware of the possibilities of showing work online since her student days at Central Saint Martins. After she made a collection that included several bustles, she recalled Louise Wilson, the outspoken director of the school’s master’s program, bellowing: “The front, Mary! You only see the front on Style.com!”
Her brilliant prints and color palette, like that of many in her generation, may have been affected by the digital space, as Ms. Cardini suggests, but Ms. Katrantzou credits it for making her work stand out from the crowd on the web, effectively giving her an advantage over those designers who aren’t attuned to the online palatability of their wares.
The digital world can also open a more direct line of communication between designers and their fans than was previously possible. “I want to share with people,” said the dedicated Instagrammer Riccardo Tisci, the creative director of Givenchy, during a recent visit to New York. Mr. Tisci prefers to use the medium to share not necessarily his clothes, but the inspirations behind them, like the Giò Ponti architecture and design that influenced a recent pre-fall collection. “In Ukraine, a girl who doesn’t know who is Giò Ponti” likes the collection “and doesn’t know how I get to that,” he said. “To see the beginning of the story is quite beautiful. I think Instagram, if you use it in the right way, it’s a positive.”
Designers are not the only ones embracing the freedom offered digitally. The stylist Carlyne Cerf de Dudzeele, a fixture in the industry, now hosts a YouTube show and is Instagramming merrily. Though she has worked with photographers like Peter Lindbergh and Steven Meisel, she recently took matters into her own hands for a fashion story in System magazine. Every photo was, as the opening page made clear, “Shot with my iPhone.”
Her prefatory note enthused: “New World / No Retouching, No Assistant / No Budget, No Brainstorming, No Moodboard / Heaven!!!”
And crucially for designers, in the new world, any phone can be an instant till. When Ms. Katrantzou introduced e-commerce on her website, she Instagrammed a photo of an embellished minidress called the Midnight Chrysa to her followers. It is “an imposing dress,” she said, which costs $8,680. She sold three that day.
Well, it is almost 2014 and I thought I would share the newest songs I have stuck in my head at the moment. They’re both from a band called Panic! At The Disco. I remember listening to them a couple of years ago, but then I stopped. Don’t ask me why lol. I leave you to listen to some of my favorite songs by them. Memories and The Ballad Of Mona Lisa.
Tori Kelly has some serious chops. I have to say I love those gold accented jackets in the video. This song is something I have not been able to get out of my head lately, along with some fall out boy songs. If there was a song that described me, even in the least, this would be it. I am a hopeless romantic, and will be waiting for that special someone 🙂 I hope you enjoy the mesmerizing voice that is Tori Kelly with her hit Dear No One.
P.S. I would also check out some of her other songs, they are so meaningful and perfect too.
So it seems like a lot of people do not look at my blog anymore, which is fine, I write this blog because I love to do it. But my older posts seemed to be the highlight of my blog. I also think my earlier posts were better. Preferably the ones about Ariana Grande and Fifth Harmony, or just read everything 🙂 lol. Go check them out if you hadn’t already :)!
Has anyone else watched this show? I am in love with Toby Regbo as Francis and all of the fashions. I can say nothing bad about this new series, I watched the first episode at least 2 times, and I don’t like reading or watching things I have seen before. Reign is just perfection.
The picture I have attached is my most loved outfit of Mary’s (Adelaide Kane) thus far, it is simple yet classic and timeless. I actually don’t know what else to write right now, I just love everything on the show, can you tell? Well, actually I might be able to share some of the songs that really intrigued me.
Enjoy! And if you have not watched the show before, watch it, you will not regret it!!
What more can I say about this wonderful singer. Sara first charmed us with her hit Love Song, and now Brave. This song embodies what we all should be doing, being a little more brave. I love how the video takes the people who would otherwise be outcasts and makes them shine. In this world full of hate we need to embrace our differences no matter what you look like. If its not you who has a difference don’t worry about it, let that person be who they are. Be BRAVE!!